New Baby and new sizes.

I got an unexpected gift when Kane came. About 3 pants sizes and 35 pounds gift. Is there an easy way to return it? I never had a problem with working out or weight before so I'm at a bit of a loss. Actually time seems to be my biggest rival coupled with my inherent hatred of working out around others.

I kinda made myself laugh when I re-read what I just wrote as reality smacked me and I remembered that it took all my energy today to crawl out of bed and feed Kane. I think I'm passed the sleep deprivation vacation spot and have now entered Get-Away-From-Me-Or-I'll-Kill-You-If-I-Get-A-Second-Wind place. No worries though. I am not feeling anger or resentment toward Kane that they warn happens before a mommy snaps. I'm more resentful of everyone else for no reason.

Scenario 1:

Jack and I are playing computer games while the baby is playing in his swing. Even though I am playing a game my attitude is

"Oh yeah..go ahead and play your stupid game! I WISH I could play a game!"

Rationality nor reality has no part in my world right now I fear.

Scenario 2: At the grocery store or any public place:

Someone wanders into the path my eyes have mapped that I want to walk. I may be standing still but I PLANNED that walk and THEY are just morons because THEY don't have a 3 month old screaming at home and therefor should get the hell out of my way.

Again..not rational and I might care about this more if I WASN'T SO DAMN TIRED!