I'm starting to become concerned that irrationality will become a permanent fixture in my life. After 4 months can I claim hormones still? I know my insides are still all freaky and I never thought I'd say this but, I'd really like a normal period again. I skipped one, the one after was very light and creepy! I'm beginning to wonder if my body is so pissed it is not going back to normal out of spite.
But back to the irrationality.
I think I need a daycare a few days a week. I'm beginning to growl at people and cry over ridiculous reasons. I need more help as it's starting to feel that Kane is strapped to me 24/7. So what do I do? Yell at Jack. When he tries to take the baby, I shout "I've GOT him" and carry the baby in another room. In all fairness, he doesn't help me enough. He still spends the exact same amount of time in front of his computer as he did before Kane. He doesn't take initiative to pick him up if he's fussing. The day Kane was screaming I almost killed him when he sighed in a really annoyed way and put headphones on. He really did. I started to walk to the kitchen to get a knife to stab him and, luckily for him, forgot.
Getting off topic again.
Someone says something to me that makes perfect sense to the rest of the world. But to me, I hear something else. A book club I belong to takes about 10 days to get a new book. I know this. Yet after 3 days I'm on the phone shouting at their customer service and swearing to cancel. I know I'm being an idiot. Yet words keep coming out making me MORE of an idiot.
The on/off switches of my brain and mouth that I was an expert with for so long is broken and the store is saying they don't make them anymore. So now what do I do?
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